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2012-01-26T10:44:00.002+08:00

This year seems so much better although I get bang by a car on the first day of CNY -.-

But I don't know how long can this last

I still remember few months back, what am I doing.

Somehow I wish I could go back to the past, rather than now.

Even though happier but deep inside it aren't so.

Chilling out at night, sleep over. Walking on street.

Late movies, supper, didn't sleep for days and weeks.

But they always cared, ask me to sleep and stop going out.

Few months back, so many things happened.

Be it studies, friends or families. Everything happened.

Within that short period of one week, all happened.

Although everything might seems to be back, but we know it aren't.

I did my best for everything, to keep everything going.

Did you all even notices it?

I changed, didn't I?

From someone who can't handle stress alone, I did it.

From someone who don't go out alone, I did it.

From someone who sleeps in the day, to night, I did it.

From someone who MIA from you all, I contacted you all, I did it.

From someone who seldom talks, to the one always talking, I did it.

No one seems to see the change.

This isn't any emotional post.

Is just random though, sudden thought.

Chinese New Year is cominggg

2012-01-19T10:26:00.001+08:00

HELL YEAH!

The most united festival I guess.

The only festival everyone meet up!

Sadly, little girl is down with chicken pox :(

Just after attending 2weeks of school!

>;(

2012-01-11T13:05:00.002+08:00

I didn't meet any of my resolution I made last year.

I aren't making any this year.

Because I don't know what is my plan.

2011, you have been a bitch.

You let time pass by so quickly, yet so much things happened.

You let me laugh the most, cried the most, think the most.

Spent my last minute of 2011 with my love.

Spent my first day of 2012 drinking with crazy friends.

Actually I've got so much to post, so much.

But I don't know how to start, where to stop.

Meeting sisters up on Friday. Been so long since we did.

Seems like all the gathering is back, feel so much happier.

I miss late night out, late night walking, laughing.

2012, please don't be a bitch.

Don't bring everything back, and let it hurt once more.

3 of 365.

2012-01-03T10:24:00.001+08:00

Is a brand new year!

2011-12-26T20:09:00.002+08:00

Rather upset.

But I'll be fine.

Because friends aren't everything.

Although I suck, I got wonderful families.

2011-12-21T14:03:00.002+08:00

Been days since I last update.

So fast reaching the end of December already.

Time flies, getting old already, going to reach my '2' in a few more months.

Baked some pretty cute cookies!

Wanted to bake chocolate one, but house no more choco powder.

So yeah, normal butter chocolate cookie :D

Gingerbreadman, christmas tree, star, candy cane, heart, cookie shape!

All, very happy when baking, because everyone likes it :)))

I feel so much further than everyone.

MIA this word to me is already nothing.

Phone havent been switch on for 3 days.

I am so going to switch on later, I bet not much people find me yeah.

Yes, I am pretty with my life now.

Even if I am not, what can I do, what can you do?

I don't need everyone to know how unhappy I am.

I don't need anyone to know how upset I am.

But I need everyone to know how happy I am, so I can be really happy.

Seriously, I don't care about this world, anymore.

Yes, I am living all by myself now, I don't care.

2011-12-05T14:27:00.002+08:00

I am typing all these after fully letting everything go.

Chilled down, stopped thinking, stopped hoping.

I wasn't as wonderful as what you all thought I was.

I too, is a normal human being, who wishes, who wants, who hopes.

When I am hurt, I bleed inside too, I cry too.

I may be strong to some of you, but the truth is, I aren't anymore.

I already don't know how to pretend, how to hide.

Because every single one of you brought colours to my life.

But why? Why are you taking it away one by one..?

I know, I disappoint myself the most, but I need you all too.

All these will aren't strong anymore.

I can no longer fake a smile like before.

Because you all thought me how to smile with my heart, not mind.

I guess you didn't realise all these, how much I want things to go back.

我曾经也希望过我曾经也开心过

2011-12-05T11:26:00.002+08:00

其实我有点累了，

累倒要崩溃了。

i aren't nothing

2011-11-29T07:55:00.002+08:00

You can't believe how much a person can change, because you won't notice your own changes.

You might know you have change, but to yourself is just a little, but to those beside you, is a bigbig change.

And once you changed, you noticed it, people around you told you, then you said you will change back to the old you.

But you yourself know, all these aren't going to be the same again.

It is not going to be the same anymore, like before.

I changed. She changed. He changed. You changed. They changed.

But all this aren't anything to me, anymore. Yeah, fuck me for saying all this.

Chee's BBQ was a funny one. 'Caused it rain.

Cousins and Avery enjoyed themself the most.

They're walking in the rain. Especially Avery taking a bigbig umbrella walking around.

Superb naughty, but still cute, although, very guailan. HAHAHA.

Been hook on the snoopy apps on phone or whatever apps that's stupid.

I could stare at the phone, with the snoopy apps on and pressing the coin.

LOL! Very stupid but I enjoyed myself, very much.

Superb tired, but I am heading to TanTockSeng later on.

You don't need to know why, but yeah.

Cheryl Chua! I don't know you're going to read this anot!

But you very very not friend enough laaaaaaaaaaaaah!
Invite your poly friend to your ROM and forget us :(

Sad the the max already, but still want to congrats you!

'Cause this is once in a life. Wish you happiness!

2011-11-27T01:25:00.002+08:00

I'm really tired, my eyes are closing, yet I'm forcing it to open.

I just don't feel like sleeping yet, I don't know why either.

Life's been great, yet a bitch.

December is arriving soon, the following by a brand new year.

This year seems like a fast one.

So much things happen this year.

You know what, I feel so far, so far from every single one of you.

Too far till I think I will suffocate. Suffocate by those unknown people.

Why can't life just be crystal clear?

2011-11-23T22:37:00.002+08:00

Caught 'You're the apple of my eyes" today.

Freaking awesome show.

Totally depicts school life, I swear.

Remember the last day of school?

When was the last gathering back then.

We've all gone so far, or was it me only?

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我要一个轰轰烈烈的 20岁生日。

I hope I have the courage to.

2011-11-14T12:27:00.002+08:00

How long have I not be myself.

I don't know either. Who cares anyway.

Been so long so long since I met up with friends and do things together.

Like how we did, but pretty much of how to go back like last time.

Maybe I am the one that's not going back to be like last time, maybe.

Recently doing nothing much. Life is bored, but still pretty interesting.

MIA from friends for quite long, even till now to some of them.

Actually I got this feeling of just continue going MIA, but I love them to much.

HAHAHAHAHAHA. Not exactly, but I don't want to lose them just because we didn't contact.

I think my body clock sort of tune back! Hahaha.

But I don't like it, I really don't.

I don't know why, but I don't want to lead a life like everyone else.

I want to be unique, I want to be imperfect, I want to be the dumb-est person on Earth.

Yes, this is me. I want to be that kind of different from all of you.

Since weekdays no need to take care of Avery I think I can change back to the old me again.

The one that sleeps in the day and wake up at night ! :D

Alot up-coming events, super looking foward to it. Happy mode*

2011-11-10T15:40:00.002+08:00

I wanted to update.

But suddenly, I don't know where to start.

&Also too much to write till I don't know what to write.

Life have definitely been a bitch, but still going on.

Fuck yeah. Congratulation Cheryl Chua!

I want to catch up with you soon girl !

December, come faster, end faster.

2012, I wish for you, I want you.

I want you to be a better year for me.

2011-10-31T10:15:00.002+08:00

Friday night meet up with my girls at CWP for Pastamania ♥
Ordered alot of foods :P Main course for each of us and medium size pizza.

Awesome laaa! Eat like one mad only. Hahaha.

Decided to go Woodlands Waterfront so, head to interchange after that.

Took bus there to meet Mingyee and wawa! So long no meet them lo!

Not many people, climbed the "nets" with bags and wedges on.

I'm freaking mad. LOL, I think. But still alright. Haha.

Kept on shouting at those kids cause they kept shaking. So afraid that I might fall can.

Nearly stone up there for don't know how longgg.

But in the end is the kids teach me how climb up there. Funny la!

Hahahahaha, their head just pop out from the top keep scary me.

Think of it I cannot stop laughing! Oh my godzxzxzx.

Played MonopolyDeal later. Deal deal deal, all the while lose.

Change spot 'cause of cockroach! Then after that got catzxzxzx ==

Nevermind, the cat ran fast, but after that saw caterpillar?

Insects and pets everywhere. Geeeeez. Bus home after that.

Surf net till morning had breakfast already then sleep.

So I was like thinking I sleep till 3pm or 4pm wake up.

Then when I was like so unwilling to wake up, I thinking why the house so quiet.

How come Avery didn't come disturb my sleep today?

Look out of window, why so dark one? How come corridor lights on?

How come house so dark also. No lights like that.

Open laptop lid and see, "WTF??!!! 7PM PLUS LE?"

Very awesome I know.

All of them went 166 for dinner and ditched me at home

Nevermind. Went to find them after that .

Oh, I remember I still got icecream at home out of the sudden.

So going home and eat it up later. hehehehehehehezx.

reality vs virtual

2011-10-28T13:23:00.002+08:00

HELL YEAH. You just made me feel great.

Wednesday was PH so I spent my day sleeping at home despite my cousin was here.

I just sleep the whole day, woke up at night and surf the net.

I thought the next day which was yesterday, my eyes will feel better.

But is still dry, now even the surrounding skin was dry.

So I told myself when I reach home, I will sleep till next day.

Failed, 'cause Mum woke me up for dinner and I couldn't go back to sleep already.

All the way till this morning at 7am, force myself to get some sleep again.

Slept till 12pm, ate breakfast Dad bought for me, and off I go.

Too bored that I'm blogging right now.

So much for me to say, so much that I don't know where to start.

Everything just get me cranky. Doubts everywhere.

But I don't wish to find out anymore. I live my life, you guys live yours.

I cleared my FB friends few days back, happy much.

A little regret because I should clear all, not most.

Nevermind, this time round I will let you all delete me instead all right?

&I've never regretted. Even how much you going to bitch about me.

Go ahead, life like this is fun, but I won't care.

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I tried my best to bring everything back; failed

Let's just be stranger all over again;

pizzahut!

2011-10-25T22:52:00.003+08:00

Today I went Pizza Hut with my girls yo!

Finally satisfied my cravingssss! :D

Chit chatted alot, laughed and such!

Awesome much. Ate like one crazy.

Got my tables and plates into mess! Hahaha!

I miss those times we were in the same class.

They will text me in the morning ask me if I'm awake.

They will call me every few minutes asking me if I reach school.

When I sleep in class, they will wakes me up.

When I'm late, they will sign the attendance for me.

When I know nothing about that module, they will spend their precious time teaching me.

When I didn't have my work done, they will let me copy.

When online assignment is about to end, they will help me to complete.

They, are those that helped me through out my Polytechnic life.

They are the best girls in my Polytechnic life.! I swear.

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I should have notice, I shouldn't put much hope.

Nevermind, the feeling of being "used" is already immune.

A week passed

2011-10-24T01:53:00.003+08:00

Got my hair shaved together with HuiWen!

She drove Vilynn and me to ChongPang but

in betweens took alot of turns!

'Cause she forget the routes.

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA;

Not really nice la my shave..

But Idc! First time shaving hair man!

Cool-ness yo.

Vilynn cut bangs too! Hahaha!

Had dinner together and HuiWen drove me home!

Hiakhiakhiak!

Reached home and show everyone my awesome hair!

LOLOLOLOLOL.

Okay, not that awesome, but is still COOL.

Meet up with bitches at night. At coffeeshop for drinking.

Chit chat alot about school lifes. Damn, I miss school a lot.

We laughed the hell out till almost 3am. Was dark and scary.

Overnight at HuiWen house instead.

She's damn good! She ditch me at her house the next morning and went school herself.

Awesome friend I got. She gets her Mum to wakes me up at 11am. Geez.

Meet up with HuiWen and JunHao at my bus stop around evening time.

Bus to Marsiling CC, 'Cause woodlands complex there, their badminton court fully booked :(

Left an hour too at CC, so they booked it. Need wait for an hour so went up to sing.

Been so long since I sing, but was awesome :D Hiakhiak. See them badminton while I only play around :P Hehehe.

Played awhile in basketball court with HockBoon and went KFC for dinner.

Chat while eating and the guys going shave their hair too! Whooooooo!

Reached home and Avery running to me and hug me <3

Then afternoon woke up and see their pictures in twitters. Awesome max.

Theirs were like so much cooler, but nevermind! Hahaha.

Stayed at home to entertain Avery. She's damn pro in talking now.

'Cause I woke up and get my Mum to cook maggie for me.

Finish eating, I said " Very full hor? " She replied me "Full then go down ride bicycle lo"

HAHAHAHA. Smart girl right?! Actually she just want to go out and play.

Brought her down after that.

Meet Remus and his cousin at around 12AM near my house.

He's god damn smart make me walked to CWP when there's still bus.

Not happy day at Mcdonald, shouldn't elaborate.

Kept on talking to my Malaysia cousins in FB.

Very funny, but great. Haha. Enjoyable :P

#fml

2011-10-18T07:56:00.002+08:00

I'm very sleepy now, but I'm still blogging.

Because I've got nothing to do(!)

Last Friday I met up with Delwyn at Vivo.

Waited for Sandy to arrive, took my Jacket and went off.

We waited for almost an hour for a taxi! ==;

Cab to ECP and ton with Delwyn's friend. Awesome.

I usually don't talk much, but I think I speak more than usual that night.

Reached home at around 8.30am and slept like a log.

Woke up and walked to Woodlands Waterfront with mum, dad & naughtygirl.

Mum brought us walked a wrong way, and I was carrying Avery while she sleeps!

Damn, in the end I was the one who brought them there.

I think I'm awesome, for I am a fail map reader.

Avery climb up those rope thingy, and I followed her.

She kept out saying "I don't want 跌倒" up there.

I kept laughing at her, and help her walked through.

Then dad carried her down, and I climbed down.

Around 3am, Remus asked me accompany him to Macdonald to eat.

3.30am he reached my house area, went down meet him and walk to Mac.

Walked the usual long road, and finally reached at 4am!

Chit chat, laughed, whatever. Wanted to walk home, but he wanted to cab.

So cab home, chat on FB while waiting for maple to be up.

Maple up, login, chat awhile, and off I sleep. LOL.

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So much for yesterday night that I look through pictures at FB again.

I miss the old times, I want to be young again, I want to bitch everyone.

too much

2011-10-12T06:35:00.002+08:00

Sleepless night again and again.

I've been browsing through tagged photos.

All those memories, freaking nice and awesome.

I ran back to every album to look at every single picture.

I just looked at the picture itself and smiled.

I hope everything can be the same as before.

But, I am the one to blame, to have everything right now.

I don't deserve any forgiveness or understanding.

I miss those secondary school days times.

Even though it have been like 2 years.

Every crazy things we did in class, in school, outside school.

I want to be young again.

I want to scold vulgarities like nobody business.

I want to sleep in school and gets wake up by teachers.

I want to go to school during recess time and sneak into school but get my attendance taken.

I want to run out of school during recess time and go home.

I want to skip school in the morning and only attend remedials in the afternoon.

I want to go shopping in school uniform.

I want to keep all my books under the desk.

I want to talk back teachers and sent for detention.

I want to shout and yell at teachers for all I care.

I want to play poker cards in class when exams is just around the corner.

I want to eat and drink very fast during recess so I don't need put plates and cups.

I want to act strong infront of you all, although I failed.

I want to cry in class again, and you guys will be asking me why.

I want all this back again, I miss those times.

I swear, this were the times, I enjoyed most in secondary school.

All these memories just keep on flashing in my mind.

These are memories that cannot be erase, is too precious.

I remember those times, I cried, who were there for me.

Even though I always did not say out why I cry.

Even though my answer was I am just too tired so I cried.

But you guys were there for me.

I remember when I told you guys I am emo, you all text and called me.

Even if you guys are not able to come down, you gave me a text, a call and everything.

Just to make sure I am fine, I stop crying.

I remember when I argued with anyone at home and just walked out of house.

You guys were the one spamming my phone with text and calls.

Even I chose to ignore all this, you guys were still there for me.

I remember every single things you guys did for me.

You guys change me from someone who doesn't talk, but only cry in class alone.

To someone who joke, smile, talk and laugh with you all.

But, I'm fucking sorry right now, I don't know why I become like this again.

I know I disappoint every single one of you.

But nothing could change now, I am sorry. Really.

who am i

2011-10-08T22:08:00.002+08:00

Recently too many things happened at one go.

Life sometimes get too tired, and you don't know who to go to.

But have got no choice, but to face it. Really shag.

My life now is in a mess until I don't know where to go right now.

I don't even know how to speak up right now.

How am I going to face this?
How are they going to face this with me?

How am I going to let them know too.

Sigh. I need a corner.

A corner to be alone and let me cry.

2011-10-05T22:56:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I just feel like screaming.

I want to scream out every single thing.

Sighsighsigh. Who can I turn to now?

One by one came, one by one left...

forever not

2011-09-29T04:18:00.002+08:00

Caught Fright Night at Cineleisure on Monday night.

Chambers after that 'cause no where to go.

Talked a little with sisters at facebook, oh well~

Bought breakfast home for family again.

Parents were both awake, I just lie on the bed till they went out.

Actually not, I still use laptop, but you know you know.

Bathed and walked to the MRT station.

Went Junction8 have Sakae Sushi because, I am finding Delwyn ♥

Lazy upload the picture now! I'll do it tomorrow :D

'Cause I snap a picture with her! Yay! Hehe.

Went TPY see them play pool~ Funny ttm;

Homed to pass iPad and a fast meet up.

I don't know how to explain myself, but I cried.

Wanted to rest well, have a good sleep.

But I can't stand those stupid stuff that is happening at home.

When I finally sleep, I get woke up again.

Is the same like, I am staying out every night.
I really want to stay at home.

Suppose meet Teckli accompany him pass whatever letter.

But didn't 'cause he say is okay that he go alone.

Then, I sleep for an hour before going out to meet them.

I didn't bring iPad out today, so I made them wait for meeee! :D

Accompany Vilynn to the bank to deposit her coinS. First time x:

I think we almost crowd around the machine for more than 10minute!

Mosburger never sell my frozen strawberries today x(

Went singing, although no mood sing one.

But still sing lah, who cares!

Walk walk around as is still early. Damn sian ttm.

Reached home and I wanted to sleep till next day!
Then, I slept at 10pm woke up at 12am plus.

So angry at myself! Why can't just continue sleeping!

Watched TV, listen song, stalk people.

Till nothing to do, so I came updating yeah~

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If I am still young

But I am not anymore.

Night life

2011-09-25T18:04:00.003+08:00

Tuesday suppose to go in M'sia with Huiwen & Evon.

But did not as wanted to dinner with JiaQi and girls to celebrate her birthday.

Cancelled, so jio Huiwen out for dinner @ 167. Had Aston!

Slack at my house after that and decided to go in Msia the following day!

Supposed to meet Huiwen at 1pm or so but, overslept :P

Ended up we meet up at 2.30pm at Woodlands Centre.

Was a fast trip ther ^___^; Head to sing and ordered foood!

After singing, we eat again. HAHA x: LOL!

Then shop awhile, didn't bought anything.

Bought starbucks and head back to Singapore.

I think I stayed at home the whole day on Thursday.

Friday was RP result day. Suppose meet Huiwen at 1pm!

Ended up I woke up at 1pm! Huiwen woke up at 3pm;

Then I was lazy to go out liao. LOL. Went to sing again and dinner with her.

Rushed home took iPad and rushed down to Somerset to meet Sandy!

I was late again :/ So hard to kick this habit of being late :(

Ended up we caught the 12.45AM show instead.

Lan awhile before show start. Movie was funny to the max :)

Cab down to Yishun Chambers, but the uncle don't know where is it.

Alight at ChongPang and walked our way there! O:

First time dota, and I feel so noob! :( Is such a hard game !

Despite them teaching and teaching, but yeah Thanks! :)

Was bored so stalked around at FB and bloghop.

Mood went down down down after that :(

Sorry wifeyzx and friends! Thanks for cheering anyway!

Had Mcdonald breakfast with wifeyzx !

Shag mood, and we decided to cab home. Sorry :(

Promise the next time we go out I won't give sian sian mood liao ^_^

Met huiwen at around 3AM for Mcdonald! She walked to my house like a fast.

I rushed down she already reached! LOL! Walked to CWP after that.

Took a long long road. Supper after supper x: Power ~

Lepak lepak~ Till 6AM bought breakfast home for family.

Bus-ed home, chat awhile, and CMI.

Bathed and head down to CWP to had Swensen.

The service there was CMI, reaaaaaaaaaaaally I swear.

Kiddy Palace and 7-11 after that. Bus-ed home.

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I don't know what to do.

I'm sorry that I changed.

is the same

2011-09-20T00:25:00.002+08:00

Meet Vilynn & Noorul @ Civic center on one of the day.

Nothing to do, so went for a 2-hour sing @ Partyworld.

Head down to RP to collect her laptop and off-ed to 883.

Lan-ed for an hour and had dinner together.

I forgotten when I meet up with my girls @ JiaYi house and had a Mahjong session.

I woke up late and didn't meet them for lunch.

Loses like one mad girl @ Mahjong, but nevermind.

Head down to 166 for dinner after that ;

Went JiaYi house with XuShan for a short while.

Went had lunch with Chee @ CWP.

Had Yoshinoya & Crystal Jade.

We're pro! We eat like two mad woman :D

Meet up with HuiWen under my block and off to AMK.

Koi, and went off roaming around AMK.

The KBOX that is directly outside moved again.

Wanted to catch movie but all left first 2 row seat.

Went roam again, and ended up see-ing alot of dogs, cats, cockroach and SQUIRREL!

Sing for 4-hours straight! Had KFC and back to Woodlands.

CWP Mcdonald is like a 'WOW' to me! Even fries can sold out, that night.

CWP lunch/dinner with Avery, Chee & Jef.

Had Gelare! Waffle icecream <3 and Some roll chee ordered.

Head to crystal jade right after that!

Their porridge is quite nice, even Avery eat it! Yay :)

Kiddy Palace after that, and Avery got new legos!

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其实我真的好想好想放弃

好想好想说对不起

放开会更好吧？

another day

2011-09-14T04:29:00.005+08:00

Catch smurf with Vilynn & Serene @ Cathay on 12th.

Picture spammed after that ;

Head over to Blk 150;

Waited for them to arrive as yet.

I entertained myself with candles.

Start burning my fire, alone.

Camwhored abit;

Before JiaYi left, we took some pictures too!

&& The heart I made with wax!

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

This was made by Serene;

Pretty much!

Went off to near Blk21 to meet up with MingYee!

&& wawa called my JELLY jiejie once again! LOL;

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Overslept and meet up with my girls late @ JiaYi house.

Mahjong and lost like mad; Nevermind.

Head over to 166 to grab some food because I was really hungry;

Finally finish watching my Sunshine Angel! :D

I'm afraid once again;

I admit, I am not as brave as you imagined;

I, don't know how to give up;

Summary

2011-09-12T04:38:00.008+08:00

I've so much to say, but I decided to just post a summary.

I want all this to be a part of my memories ! ♥

Maple the whole day at home on Monday.

On Tuesday,

Went town with my girls.

Ate a lot a lot ;

Stayed up and didn't sleep.

Left home at around 8.20am alone;

Thursday,

Brought Avery to a swim;

With Vilynn, TeckLi & Serene;

Us without TeckLi;

Friday suppose to meet up with HuiWen & Evon for a swim;

I woke up at 9am, but too tired, so didn't turn up.

Afternoon that day,

Went GenkiSushi;

Look at how their food is served

*Ooops my hand :P*

Eat eat eat :P

Then build-a-COOKIE :P

Stoned at home on Saturday;

Sunday slept almost the whole afternoon;

Woke up and catch Sunshine Angel again :)

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4:56AM now as I am still posting.

How I wish we were still the same.

I don't need you 'reporting' what you're doing to me;

I don't need you explaining, just because of me;

Sometimes I really wonder, if he didn't ask, will you ask?

Yet you make me realise, I am sort of tired;

But I will still give in;

Because I still need all of you;

But you did not realise how hard I tried;

But did you even make an effort to?

2011-09-10T15:52:00.002+08:00

谢谢你，

是你让我再次；

再次得明白一切；

tired

2011-09-09T09:55:00.002+08:00

I didn't sleep for more than 48hours, but still hanging on.

I forced myself to sleep yesterday night, and yeah~

11.30pm to 2.40am ; 4am to 9am ; 8 hours! :D

Early in the morning, at around 8plus, I went out;

Lucky not alot of people, was a fast one.

Waited for cousin to reached home, and I left.

Brought Avery for a swim, is been a long time.

Some kids in the pool really annoyed me;

Nevertheless, I think she enjoyed it, especially when,

Vilynn helping me taking care of her at kid's pool;

She totally made new friend there, and before leaving,

still waving bye to them happily.

Trained to Yishun. Wanted to had SakaeSushi, but no seat.

And that pig was sleeping so soundly on me.

My hand nearly broke off; Zomg.

Went up to had IshiMura; Something I had never wanted to try o:

No choice, I need to sit down;

Timezone-d after that; Been very long since I last brought her in.

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Suppose to go for a swim this morning with Huiwen and Evon;

But I really very tired and my hand ache a lot;

So I decided to give it a miss; Sorry!

Enjoy ya~

happy yet afraid

2011-09-08T02:59:00.002+08:00

All I do is, stayed at home.

Super no life but, yeah~

Wake up, Eat, Bathed, Online, FB, Listen song, Tweet, TV, Chat, Eat, Bathed, Online, Sleep.

Spammed a little and Facebook and Twitter with Huiwen! ♥

Dig-ed out some old blog post, and tagged them at Facebook!

So reminiscing! Super naive and fun moments I should say!

Those times were the times when all of us have no worries!

We live each day by each day! We had so much fun and laughters!

I missed those time, a lot, a lot, reaaaaaaaaaaaaaally!

Can I go back to those time?

That was the only happen moments I had in Secondary school life!

After quarrels and exams, broken up into so many clique.

I don't want to lose a single one, I don't want.

Why can we just get back like how we were last time? :/

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有时候，我真的有点害怕，害怕要说 “再见” 的那天，越来越靠近。

I am back in action!

2011-09-07T03:13:00.002+08:00

Let's see this time how long will I be making this long alive!

Recently, a lot of things happened, like reaaaaaaaaaaally.

I failed my exams, again and again. I know I am stupid.

I just freaking feel like, I am coming back. Yes, I am.

I'm sorry, but is too late for everything now.

Maple all the long like how I used to do last time.

Just this time without HuiWen they all! Hahahaha.

Finally quitted, yesterday!

Have been blasting musics for weeks.

Trying to ignore the world.

Yes, I want to live in my own world all over again.

I spoilt my phone, again but this time not losing it.

Due to my careless, I didn't cap the bottle tightly and dump it into my bag.

Although the phone cost me quite alot, but I guess is time to let go.

Without phone is a better choice, I guess?

I freaking hurt Avery's two finger due to my carelessness!

I wasn't with spectacle on while bathing, so I didn't notice her hand were there.

I open the door and, yes. Skin came off and bleed. I suck.

Everyone gone mad in the family.

I don't want to care anymore.

Like I said, I don't want to care anymore.

Issues with Vilynn.

Let's go back to how we used to be okay?

I don't want to be stranger like now.

Meet up with sisters today.

Eat so much of food.

I don't know I am happy, or am I not.

Everyone seems so busy.

I didn't go back to Secondary School during Teachers' Day.

I feel bad, reaaaaaally.

I want to stay strong.

Yes, I want.

I want to be stronger than you imagined.

I don't want my tears to roll down my cheeks again.

I want to smile and laugh like one idiot :)

I am, not me.

2011-08-31T12:18:00.002+08:00

I have the sudden urge to update my blog, like right now.

Turning in as late as I could these few days.

I change, I change, I changed.

I don't know which is the real me. Yes, Idk.

Nevermind, forget it.

I've been mapling and facebook all this while.

And my show ended, so it was a little upset.

I don't know what show to watch already.

Bored at home too, and going out spends.

I guess I have to disappoint everyone again.

I liked doing stupid stuff, yes. I liked.

I am prepared for scolding and insulting.

I don't care. I really don't. Even if I am deceiving myself.

I really don't care much.

Give me some strength to carry on!

2011-07-07T10:15:00.002+08:00

I am so unhappy.

Fuck.

I don't know what I come school for.

I have been absenting myself.

I come school for selective lesson.

I didn't bring my pen to school.

I never finish my online assignment.

I never do my written assignment.

I play game I sleep late, I get nagged.

I never play game I sleep late, also get nagged.

What the fuck. Is my body right, stupid.

Tell me how to carry on!

Life sucks pretty much.

Everyone change, everyone leave.

After a long break

2011-06-28T17:10:00.002+08:00

Hello ^___________________________^

I just trying to keep my blog alive!

So much things happened that I don't know where to start from.

I don't even remember where I stop, but still.

Those that are to be remember will be remembered.
Those that are not, are also remembered! LOL.

Hehehe.

I can't wait for the next holiday although school just start the 2nd day.

Took back 2 papers, did pretty okay. At least a pass.

Thursday gonna take back 3papers.

I think, I will get heart attack. Hahaha.

I did my best to hold on.

But is time to let it go, I will.

When you're lost..

2011-05-01T17:08:00.002+08:00

School isn't great, it sucks pretty much.

I don't understand, like really?

So what if I already have freaking 7 modules?!

I just appeal to add one more in and fucking said want me to study hard and pass all my module.

Then how about those people having diploma plus plus! Aren't they having 8 modules as well?!

I don't even know what Ngee Ann Polytechnic is thinking about.

Are their staff too lazy to arrange a new timetable for us?!

This sucks really. You letting those who repeat module jumping around classes.

& Then now giving them one of the module and next semester they will still be jumping around.

You think they have the fucking mood to study like this.

Seriously, I don't understand. Yes, I am putting on the blame on school! Fuck up.

Life isn't that happy either. Is still the way it is.

Unfair, unreasonable, unhappy. That is life right?

You don't get what you want. & you get what you don't want.

You get scolded for nothing. You get what that you deserve.

You will not get what you deserve unless you have the money.

That's what life is, all about money.

You got the fucking money, you get to say others. &Others have no right to say you.

Because they pay what for you have now.

Isn't that true enough to be part of life?

When they have money, and you don't have.

They talked in the same tone same way as you go an adult, you get scolded by them whereas they don't get scolded by your parents.

That is life! Money is everything right now. I know right now.

19years of life, I finally know what is life.

Life is money. You have got the money you talk in whatever way you want also fine.

If you dont have the money, keep your mouth shut and get scolded for rest of your life.

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Studying is important. Just studying is important.

You better fucking get into a good school and don't lose to who and who.

You don't fucking fail your exam if not what and what.

Hey you asked for so much why don't you do it yourself.

You're working and we're studying. You need time to rest you think we student don't need?

You think we really have so much free time.

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Yes, I am bullshitting.

Don't fucking come to shout the hell out of me.

I don't fucking need anyone of your comment.

Jolly well keep your mouth shut and don't talk to me.

Because now, I only live for myself.

I don't care what happen next.

2011-04-24T14:49:00.002+08:00

So I celebrated my birthday with friends, only.

Is fine with me anyway, 'cause I don't have a happy family.

On my birthday itself, I went out with Huiwen and friends.

Went woodlands waterfront. Meet up with another birthday girl, Jo!

Like no childhood, we climb up the 'nets' or what :D

And have a small 'picnic' over there. Hahahahahahah!

Pringles with spicy tuna was awesome!!!!! Really.

Eat, play, camwhore everything :)

Sing at Marsiling CC for 2hours, just to enjoy air-con I should say :D

Off to HuiWen house, her mum cooked for us.

Monopoly :) Cut cakes and home-ed.

The same week Thursday went out with sisters <3

Enjoy, but legs hurt. Had pizzahut *YAY*

Everyone was present, I was super happy.

Because not everytime we have outing everyone was present.

Shopp-ed, they bought me a very high wedges. Haha.

I walked with that at bugis street, imagine D:

Took neoprints too! Like after so many years.

My last neoprint was also taken with them Haha.

No cake, but was great! Happy to the max :)

School have been shit. I don't know how I'm going to survive year2.

We will see, will wait.

I'm kind of tired already, give me a space.

2011-04-10T00:35:00.003+08:00

Seriously, I don't know what's the meaning of life.

yeah yeah yeah.

Finally got all hair dyed. I found it awesome!

Things haven't been going smoothly.

My fault or not my fault not my view, but all of yours.

I don't really mind, as long I am still myself.

I know myself the best, I know if I am right or wrong.

Tuesday I went to CitySquare for a walk with Chee.

Spent quite a huge amount on food, clothing and shoe.

Friday went to Xushan house and had home-made dumpling.

Meet up with Thida & Anna and went to partyworld.

Tried out civic new japanese restaurant as well.

MRT, cab until I want vomit and finally reach pub :/

1am plus cab home again. Seriously, wasted so much again.

I wanted to pub instead of club to save on cost but we spend 50bucks on cab.

Saturday, went to AMK with Chee,Jef,Xushan & Avery.

Had Ichiban sushi YEAHHHHHHHHHHH.

Like finally, although two days of Japanese food.

But is great. This is life? Haha.

So next week plan is to meet up with Huiwen and friends on Tuesday morning to celebrate Josephine and my birthday.

Meet on Thursday with Kaen and friends to celebrate my birthday as well as outing.

For the rest of the day I will just stone as home.

Because I am out of cash. I have been using wasting too much.

2011-04-02T13:02:00.002+08:00

Have been really boring at home!

Hang out with quite a few others past few days.

Now my memories really fading?

I totally forgotten when I meet up with friends, what I do on that particular day.

But I will try to recall!

Tuesday went to CCK to collect tees for Vilynn.

But more like for myself, 'cause I order a lot from her.

Went to find Xushan first before collecting.

After collecting, waited for Vilynn and set off to MOF to grab some food.

Then visit XuShan awhile, pass her tee and went home.

*STEAMBOAT*

Happy to the maximum :D More tenpanyaki than steamboat.

Wednesday I woke up very early to choose my IS module!

Wah, get what I want lei :D Hehehehehe.

Then XuShan called me in the noon, so we went lunch at 166.

Off to her house later on. Anna called me and we chat for quite long?

Help her enroll her IS, but couldn't get the same as mine as week 1 one no more ):

Youtube and Mum called, or Avery? Haha.
Went home find her and show her the tees I bought for her.

Bring her to playground after that.

Around 11pm, Huiwen came to my house while waiting HockBoon to be back home.

She went up, I went to bathe and went up to HockBoon's house.

Imagine! We from around 12am chat till 3.30am. Awesome much :D

But they were bullying me all the way .____________________.

Thursday I went out with Thida and Anna :D

Told them I won't late but I still late.

Late half an hour :P Hehehehe.

We went to have Myanmar food. We ordered so much food!

Manage to clear up everything except for my fried rice x:

'Cause is a lot a lot enough for 4-5 people to eat lor =____=

After that I saw a Fujifilm shop, saw polaroid camera so tempted to buy!

So, end up I buy x; LOL, hahahaha.

After that we walk to Raffles city and went Starbucks!

LOL. I ordered drinks againnnnn x:

Chat awhile and decide to set off.

Then beside was UmiSushi!

Ohmygod, guess what? We went in to eat again!

Hahahahahahaa! So we ate from 3pm-9pm straight no stop.

Oh that's for me. 'Cause they stop for an hour plus or two at Starbucks x:

Went to Marina Square walked away, play some catching soft toy stuff!

Shop shop, and went home ;DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

After that I stayed at home .________________________________.

&&& I am really bored. Hahaha.

Hope my strapya world item reach me on Mondayyyyyy.

2011-03-28T19:10:00.002+08:00

I am not sure how many will see this post, but I will just write.

Please, if you're not a true friend, get lost.

Get far far away from me.

Don't fucking look for me when you need my help.

If I am just someone that you looked for when you're unhappy, bored, no one to accompany, need help, then jolly well leave me alone.

I can live on my own too.

2011-03-27T02:14:00.003+08:00

I no longer want to fake a smile anymore.

I've got too tired.

When I am young, I used to think friends are important.

As I grew, I knew family are more important.

But till that day, I find out nothing is really important.

Just do what you like, just be what you want to be.

Life is short, don't mistreat yourself.

Don't live your life with regret.

You don't have to be smart.

You don't have to be rich.

You don't have to be beautiful.

You don't have to have a lot of friends.

You don't have to care about what others say.

You don't have to care about others feeling.

Y0u do whatver you like.

You live for yourself not others.

When you understand this sentence, you life is definitely great.

Yes bitches, I am emo-ing :)

I am fucking seeking for attention.

Happy?

I'm back, for now.

2011-03-14T15:02:00.011+08:00

Helloooooooooooooooooo! :D

(Been so long since I make a proper post)

A very slack holiday for me.

Did not find any work this holidays but yet spending money every single day.

Sort of gave up for my final exam. After the first

paper I just went out~

Went to dinner with Mingyee and Xushan :D

We went to Breeks at

CWP, and guess what?!

How 'lucky' were we to met Marsiling Sec teachers. Namely, MrPhua, MsYap, MsYeo & gou3xiong2 (PS. I don't know how to address him).

The were sitting write infront of our table. They were talking so loudly like it was their house.

Had waffle cheese fries and brownie w/ ice cream

at breeks :D I am more into their desserts everytime!

Not bad not bad, but if the brownie was hot, it would be damn nice :D

Chit-chat-chit-chat till we got tired and went

home, furthermore I still need to wake up early

for exam the following day!

Loved.

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Met up with KaEn on one of the Wednesday!

Went to sing at Neway. Great great! Cheap and niceee, hehehe. She told us shocking newssssssssssssssssssss!

Starting we were singing and eating very happily.

Hahahahahaa. Half way during singing, she pop out the su

per shocking news!

Actually she did told us before we went into the room, but I totally don't believe. I really thought she was joking!

But it was so real, so real when she told us everything!

After that we accompanied her to shop and she nearly lost her card! Phew, she met honest shop owner! Haha.

Went to starbucks and chat after that.

We eat again, OMG?

Had sweet sweet stuff!

I had tiramisuuuuuuuu! Superbbb!

After that we went off our way.

Xushan and me took bus back to Singapore.

Very fast arrived in Singapore as there is no traffic jam!

She went to clubbing after that while I

rush to NEX to meet up with others.

(PS. She wasn't wearing this top xD I just pick a random picture! Haha!)

Reached NEX superb late. But nevermind.

Had Shabu-Shabu. I don't think is very nice.

But acceptable.

Went sky garden took group photos after that.

HuiWen have a hard time testing her self-timer.

'Cause it doesn't workm until finally!

Everyone 'YAYED'. Haha.

Only took picture with HuiWen on my phone 'cause all was busy with their stuff!

MRT home at around 10.30 where the sky garden closed :)

So that day, I was really happy.

Met up with both group of friends :D

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Forgotten when, but pretty (Y)

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This was taken after bathed. LOL.

This was when she cut her hair and I keep saying she not cute already.

Then she start posing to take pictures and asking people to take picture of her. Trying to be cute.

Super cute and naughty girl.

But your father make me dislike you more each day.

I am sorry for beating you, but I can't help it.

The moment I see you I think of your dad.

And how much you actually love him.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

^^v.

2011-03-06T01:11:00.002+08:00

I am not emo-ing.

I am giving my thoughts.

Shut the fuck up if you don't know me well.

Don't pretend to know me.

I pretended to know nothing, because I want to maintain everything.

I want to maintain everyting that is right now, because I want to be happy.

I want all of us to be happy. Despite how many quarrels is being initial.

I tried to avoid, but why can't you understand.?

I am not happy of what you're doing, really.

I am not happy of you. I am disappointed in you.

Maybe I shouldn't bother anymore.

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I will make it.

You will make it your way.

We are two different people.

We are living in two different world.

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Good luck.

I am confused.

2011-02-16T16:03:00.001+08:00

I need a break.

Yeah, soon soon soon.

After final exam, there goes your break.

I need a rest.

Yeah, soon soon soon.

After final exam, there goes your rest.

I need.

Something you will never understand.

2011-02-14T10:20:00.003+08:00

I will stop neglecting my blog.

Final exams are coming, I want to get promote.

I don't want to repeat year 1/any module.

But can I make it?

I am forever late for lessons, skipped lessons.

Even I attend, I am sleeping/playing games.

Oh well. What can be done?

Haha. Went to MsTan house to bainian yesterday.

Superb bored. Only a few came 'cause mostly of them didn't get the message.

I don't know why, I slept for so long already my head is pain!

Sigh. Old already tsktsk.

Later should be going out with V & X.

Hope we have fun :)

is ending.

2011-02-11T00:30:00.003+08:00

Been quite a while since I last blogged.

I am mad sleepy now, but I just don't feel like sleeping yet.

Tao Hua Xiao Mei just ended on channel U.

Yeah. Rushing MOL just now. Freaking last minute.

But who cares right. I least I made the effort to copy paste --

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I cut bangs few days before CNY.

Sometimes it looks fine. Sometimes it looks weird.

I don't care much.

CNY was a total bored.

DEL practical failed badly, I know nothing.

EECAD test was 60% fine.

EG2 quiz was a total failure.

I hate school, I begin to hate school again.

Lecturers, tutors are all bitches and bastard.

Fucking lecturers in Ngee Ann Polytechnic.

They just fucked up the whole system.

Those that is required to teach don't teach.

Those aren't required they teach.

I totally don't want to go school everyday.

But their fucking policy, 80% attendance.

Crap.

Okay enough ranting.

I will update on Saturday again :)

School is not my type

2011-01-04T23:52:00.002+08:00

First day of school, I survived.

Okay, I was like for slightly more than half an hour. The moment I step in, my lecturer guailan me. Say me in a fucking sarcastic manner. Forbid me using handphone in class. Told her I want do individual work, she fucking lecture me. Say if I do individual work, she is going to fail me. So group up with three-others-i-don't-know. Forget it. Get it done, and I am finished with this fucking module -------- communication.

After school waited for Vilynn to arrived. Went canteen eat as I was damn hungry, and I ordered a lot, eat a lot :D Because she is getting TheSims3 from Valerie, so waited for her file to transfer finished (is god damn long). Then bus-ed to Woodlands. Went civic deposit money. Queue was super long and got one uncle kpkb there.

Bus-ed to RP. Great, we eat again ._. Powerful? :D I had the sambal grilled fish with spaghetti! The fish is really nice. I love the fish. After which, we went to the library. Very disappointed that day! Couldn't connect to internet and saw a cockroach in the library! ):

Second day of school

Late again. By 40minutes because I help my mum do some stuff. Reached saw my EG2 paper. 41/100. Laugh all you want bitches :) Nevermind, lunch time was taken my EG2 tutor 'cause she fucking gave me reason like, if you don't stay for remedial then I have to write a report about you not coming. Which means you're not interested in studies. Oh fuck.

AEL had test. Is suppose to be an okay one. Just left 20 marks blank. Lol :/ Early release of 1hour. Went for lunch like finally. Programming today was how fine. First lesson I do without complaining here pain there pain. Haha.

Bus-ed home with Anna.

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Tomorrow is getting back AEL paper, I guess. Hope I didn't fail.

I haven't do DEL and EECAD. I have work tomorrow till 10.

Maths tutor asked me finish all past year common test paper.

Ask me stay back on Friday and I have work that day.

Okay, everything is so complicated right now, so messy.

After holiday, I need a break again.

Like time is really what I need.

Sigh.

2011 Resolution?

2011-01-02T00:54:00.005+08:00

Since almost everyone is posting their 2011 resolution, I shall post mine too (:

(I think I will want to fulfill some this year round, 'cause all those from previous years are the bullshit!)

For studies(I have got 5 module or 6? just continue),

1. EG2

-I hope I can finish up all MOL myself by really doing it and understanding it

(I have been tikam-ing all the while)

-I hope I will study for my re-test and score well even though the marks will be cap at 50.

-I hope I can do my tutorial myself instead of copying.

2. AEL

-I hope I can listen to class more instead of watching show/daydreaming/talking away.

-I want to understand how to do the practical!

(Have been going around copying/asking anna!)

3. DEL

-Listen to class, and lesser self-proclaim breaks during lesson.

4.EECAD

-Manage to do everything myself

(I mean like, just I do it myself even with help and not submitting others work! I really dislike it!)

5.COMPRO

-Do well for this module is all I want!

6.COMISS

-Attend lesson till the end of the semester!

(Even though now I've got no group for skipping too many lesson!)

-I hope I can pass this module.

(Just a pass, a D isn't a problem anymore)

Overall:

-Try not be to late for school!

-Lesser skipping of school!

-A GPA of at least 3 x.x

-Sleep lesser in class

-Do more tutorial

For others,

-Maintain good friendship with all my friend!

-Celebrate birthday with all goodfriend!(vice-versa too! celebrate theirs with them too!)

-Look @ brighter side, look @ brighter side!

-Smile more instead cry.

-Sick less!

-No more sick during CNY this year!!

-More $$$$$

-Find a stable part-time work!

Yesyes, that's all! I will come back to this post at 2011, 31st Decemeber.

Happy 2011 everyone :D Have a great year ahead!

GoodBye 2010.

2010-12-31T23:47:00.001+08:00

It's 11.34pm right now when I start writing this post.

Yes, is nearing the end of 2010.

I don't really remember every single thing I did in 2010.

But just let me recall those rather memorable one.

2010, I entered a new school, Ngee Ann Polytechnic.

I made friends there, like Thida and Anna which we always have our break together.

Regardless of the new semester of changing class, we still meet up for lunch.

2010, I meet up lesser with my secondary school friends.

Friends that actually were suppose to be in a group, split into two.

Although not very nice, but still I manage to maintain friendship with both side, I guess.

Meet up have been lesser and lesser for us.

So, I really hope we meet up like real soon, really.

I miss all of them, all of them :D

HuiWen, Evon, Josephine, JinJia, JingYing

XuShan, MingYee, KaEn, JiaYi, Cheryl.

2010, I changed my view of things.

I am not as emotional as before.

I smile more, I think at a brighter side.

No life is no longer black and white, is now full of colours!

2010, I begin to know what is reality.

I begin to know are families for.

I know what are friends for.

2010, I am still the same.

I am lazy to study, I always do last minute work.

2010, I skipped school more and more.

I want to stop this next year.

2010, I quarreled a lot with my sister.

I hope next year she is more "awake".

Because I still want her to be my great sister as before.

2010, is a very fast year.

I want to thank friends that made my life full with colours.

I want to thank family that did not give up on me.

I have learnt a lot. I learnt how to let go.

Letting go of the past isn't easy, even though I can't.

But at least I tried to. Memories are fading.

Is now 11:44pm.

GoodBye 2010.

Holidays aren't great anymore.

2010-12-22T23:54:00.002+08:00

Have been awhile since I blogged.

Yeap, life is super boring for me.

I think I flunk my common test with flying colours.

I feel so aimless. I don't know where to go.

Holidays, yet I haven't done any homework yet.

For communication, because I skipped alot.

I've got no group, and I don't know what to do.

DEL project I don't know how to do.

Like sigh sigh sigh, nothing goes smooth this year.

I don't want to fail my communication module, because I don't want to retake it next module.

As for common test, I hope I won't fail any too.

But, sigh. Only word I can say now is only "sigh".

Have been working. Working and working.

Life is just so aimless. Everything also money.

Money no talk. Yep, that is it.

I envy those who don't need to work yet have a lot of money to spend.

I envy those who don't need to work yet they get what they want.

I envy those who don't need to work yet can buy a lot of stuff.

What can I do ?

Sigh.

2010-12-11T00:10:00.003+08:00

Have been a month since I update.

Feel so shag.!

Common test are around the corner and I am scoring eggs for almost every module.

I feel fucked up and bitch. Late for school, skipping school and shits.

I don't know why have been so long since I got those emo fuck feeling.

LOL! But I am like so fineeeeeeee after I know how to do some of the question.

Had so much fun, not so much, but fun laughing with classmates today!

Like funny action they did like, I really laugh out my lungs.

Lol. Despite I give them shits everytime, giving unhappy faces.

I really, want to be like others are.

But I just can't. Because I am already too use to myself now.

Avery had been giving my nonesense.

Everyweek she come back from my aunt house she gets naughtier.

Like, screaming and crying over things she can't get.

She never use to do it in the past. Just for some crying.

But screaming like as loud as she could really pissed me off.

Especially during all these exams period.

Fuck. I want to study too.

But I need to take care of her.

Fuck. I want to have a good sleep too.

I want to wake up late during weekends too.

But because of her, I give up everything.

So please don't give me shit.

Or else, don't blame me for turning nasty.

Fuck my life.

Another skip school day

2010-11-09T10:16:00.003+08:00

Yeah. Didn't attend school today.

Because there is EG2 quiz and also MOL revision.

And I haven't been copying, listening to any of the class.

Last Friday went out with girlfriends.

I look stupid in every picture so I just post one~

KaEn brought her polaroid camera along so we took pictures :)

But till today she haven't upload in Facebook!

Avery love KaEn like mad that she keeps want KaEn to carry her.

She don't even want to let go of KaEn and keep on 'jiejie'-ing.

But she don't like JiaYi! Avery just kept on beating JiaYi LOL.

Yup Yup, bought some nail polish and sticker too :)

Happy happy! Played with Chee's eyeliner too!

Funny laa! Nothing else.

tired + sleepy

2010-11-03T23:31:00.004+08:00

HELLO (:

I was really tired yesterday till I can't open my eyes!

I was all so normal till programming lesson :(

I really force myself so hard to try opening my eyes.

You know those feeling that every morning you wake up and 6 and the sun haven't out.

So is all dark in the room, and suddenly light is on.

You just can't open your eyes feeling?!

I got the feeling for like more than 4hours yesterday.

3 hours of gramming and an hour bus home.

God. It was like hell to me.

Even when walking, I can't open my eyes.

I just simply blind walk away trying to open my eyes.

Didn't even teach Anna about the sending Kelly stuff.

Just help her send it 'cause I am really too tired.

& I am not stress, just really to tired yesterday.

Lucky there is seat in the bus.

Slept awhile but still couldn't open my eyes!

So all the way till two bus stop away before changing bus I manage to keep my eyes open.

Really, cannot make it yesterday.

---

I am late for school today for an hour :(

Waited for Thida for half an hour during break!

Angry to the maximum already lor!

Eat, bought drink and Chen Jia Jia :D

Hahaha. His lesson was bored till !!!!!

Yup, went WestMall after that collect cheque.

XuShan came over to meet me :D Walk awhile and went to eat!

Trained back CausewayPoint after that.

Bought a new bag! I wanted to buy a new bag for very long already!

Like finally. Hehe! :D

Anyway, below are pictures of my nails :P

2010-11-01T23:49:00.003+08:00

Above is the picture of us at Malaysia during school holidays.

---

Shag. Did nothing much today.

Wasted 24-hour doing stupid thing.

Went XuShan house and saw some video about water painting nails.

Tried it, somehow we manage to get it yet fail doing it.

But still painted my nails in a normal way.

Forgotten to ask her send me a picture of it just now.

So I will upload tomorrow :D

Tomorrow is 10am lesson. Hope I wake up not feeling tired.

Off to bed after posting and a little of Facebook.

Bye :D

pictures!

2010-10-31T22:34:00.005+08:00

Brought Avery to swim today. God, the human beings there are ALOT.

Didn't swim for long, as I never bring her ball along.

& Kids there were all playing ball, so somehow she get irritated.

Bathed her and Colleen came to fetch us home.

Anyway, before going to swim we went to SSC.

Wanted to have MOF but something prob.

So went to Hei Sushi instead. Sashimi there weren't that bad.

But not much food choices.

Look at this girl here with the geek spectacle.

Is going to break anytime because of her.

Don't really care much though.

I love her yet I hate her. I hate her yet I love her.

Yes yes yes. Is me :D

With a new watch! Hehe.

Should I call it a watch or a new watch?

'Cause I haven't been wearing one since 562303912947 years ago.

Haha.

Alright I am going catch some sleep pretty soon.

8am lesson tomorrow, and is communication.

Good luck to me.

In the middle of th night-

2010-10-31T01:26:00.000+08:00

After a long bath, I felt so refresh! So I want to blog :D

New semester of school was not really good. Maybe just for me.

Till now I don't really know who is in my class and who is not.

Like ridiculous only. But is true 'cause most of the time is combine classes.

Even if is not, I will sit with Anna and tried to disturb friends in the same class before.

Haven't been listening to any module except for DEL.

C Programming should be fun too I guess (?)

I think I am going to hate communication and AEL the most.

Please god, save me. I don't need high GPA, high grade.

Just a pass for everything, I am content.

---

I haven't been happy recently, but I tried my best to be happy.

Tried giving up on whatever I can, tried to be as strong as I could.

I already did my best not to vent those anger on the child.

But the moment I see you, everything come back.

Blame me blame me, in the first place I shouldn't..

See her, look after her, play with her and everything.

But, I won't do anything like crying to sleep anymore.

I won't stop you from bringing her out.

I won't stop you from doing whatever fucking thing.

I won't even give a fuck to anything about you.

Say I am heartless or whatever you want.

But I make sure I won't shed a single tear if you die.

Even if I go before you, I won't like to see you in my wake.

Because the sight of you really make me want to puke.

As I said above, I already tried giving up whatever I can.

You should be happy this way, shouldn't you?

This is what you want, isn't it?

You live your life, I live my life.

You're happy, I'm happy.

So fuck off from my life.

Tears no longer drop because of you.

'Cause I have truly given up after all this.

2010-10-23T00:51:00.002+08:00

因为我不想再在乎也不会在稀罕什么

因为你把话说到这样我才做到这样

我找不到其它的理由再次疼爱着你的孩子

因为我对你是特地的失望

你让我觉得世界上没有好人

所以我因该停止做个好人

累过了哭够了

是时候我该放弃了

Sony Ericsson service sucks big timeeeeeeee!!!

2010-10-21T13:25:00.002+08:00

Alright as the titled.

I sent my phone to Sony Ericsson for repair on the 24th!

Guess what till now is not ready for collection.

3 more days to a month. Argh!

I sent my laptop to repair, not even a week I can collect already.

Man, Sony Ericsson service really do suck!

I called them not twice not thrice, is more than that.

They told me 7-14 working days.

Please please, go and count how long have it been!!!!!

They always answer me with, once is ready we will give you a call or SMS.

Oh my goddddddd. Just cannot believe their service sucks until CMI.

Told people 7-14 working days but failed. Regret getting SE phone.

Totally! Their service is bullshit. Customer been rushing and rushing.

Reaching a month and is not ready. Fuck shit!

Damn angry right nowwwwwwwwwwww. Arghhhhhhhhhh!

Mix stuff.

2010-10-06T13:56:00.002+08:00

Just got back from chalet this morning.

After meeting up Thida and Anna for shopping, I trained down to Paris to meet XuShan & MingYee.

Bus-ed to Coastal Sand. The bus driver was uber friendly.

Reached there they were starting up the fire.

Nothing much. Had some drink and slack.

'Cause I don't know wheres the fun of murderer.

Finally fire up (: Then HockBoon & Easter BBQ only ):

LOL. Then just eat loh. Till sian. Online awhile go another room watch tv.

Hahaha. That's paradise. W/o noise and all.

Then XuShan message MingYee ask her over.

But I feel like eating, so we went over instead. LOL.

Whooo~ Stole some stingray over. Hehe.

Nice stingray but sauce too little.

Eat finish still want. So, XuShan & me went over!

Haha, I "edit" the stingray and sotong :P

Open and add more sauce to eat, taadaa! & BBQ them myself.

Was nice alrighhht :DD Just the TXS, keep say eat liao stomachache.

But MingYee and I were fineeeeeeeeeeee :DDDD

Didn't want to stay over, but MingYee & XuShan wanted.

So I stayed over too. Never bring anythinggggggggggg.

Dang ~.~ Slept at the same room as previous chalet. 3 person again :P

Last time was HuiWen. Then Kelvin and his girlf, sleep on the floor for the first night x:

This year they book more rooms.

Alright. Gave ZhiHan & MingYee surprise cake! Cool.

MingYee nearly lead me to choke. Damn her!

After that, play blackjack. Eat until I want die.

Cause the bet was food. Gained 4kg after this chalet.

Really, no joke. Till now I'm very full.

--------------

ALRIGHT. THE DAY BEFORE CHALET ):

I DROPPED MY LAPTOP WHILE IS ON AND OPEN.
GET WHAT I MEAN? OPEN. IT DROPPED AND THE SCREEN AND KEYPAD FACING THE FLOOR.

I WAS STUNNED WHEN I SAW SOME BROKEN PIECES ON THE FLOOR.

BASE AND SIDE ALL CRACK. THE TURNING JOINT TOO.
HOLYYYYYYYYYYY. REPAIR COST AROUND $450. IS FUCKKKx...

2010-09-26T22:06:00.002+08:00

I don't know what to title this, so I left it blank.

I really dislike working at Swensen. Really.
I think longest I can stay there is till end of next week.
Longest. Seriously, I feel like quitting right now.
But just to be responsible, I just continue working.
Unless they do something that really pissed me off.

They nearly pissed me off just now.
I gave them "anytime" as my schedule for tomorrow.
I called around 7pm, they said schedule not out yet.
Ask me call at 9pm. 9pm plus I called twice.
No one pick up. So I waited all the way till 9.30pm.
I told myself if this call they never pick up I am not going to turn up tomorrow.

Oh yah, Friday and Saturday I was suppose to work.
But I didn't go to work (:
I was down with flu,fever and sorethroat.
They ask me give them MC. I totally didn't bother~
I have never heard of part timer need give MC.
Is not like you are paying for my fee right?
Second day they called me ask me why didnt turn up.
Then I said I called them on Friday le.
Then say what need submit MC.
I just " Yah. Yah. Yah. Yah. " all the way.
I mean their service sucks okay.
I might never dine in at Swensen anymore. Lol.

You know when I first day work at Swensen.
Customer calling, I told my supervisor.
She just say, don't care them.
Like oh my god. A supervisor tell a newcomer not to care customer?
I don't know how they reach their newcomer.
No sense of responsibility and all.
Totally won't worth working there.

& Further more, their pay is as low as $4.50 per hour.
And they are lack of people like fuck.
Their dish washer can even don't turn up and you got to help wash.
But of 'cause I didn't help. Like I apply for service not dishwasher you moron.
Even if they asked me to help that day, I will deny.

I mean like, is a restaurant and their management is like shit.
Totally don't worth working there. Really.
Okay, just to agitated.

Enough. Bye.

Sony ericsson sucks.

2010-09-22T02:19:00.002+08:00

Fuck sony ericsson.
Your phone sucks ttm.
Stop copying other phone.
Example iPhone, then your Xperia X10.
Your x10 totally sucks to the max.
People try to charge for 3hours, still cannot charge.
Fuck you sony ericsson.

Sony ericsson phone sucks!

2010-09-18T23:18:00.002+08:00

Been working at Swensen for 3 days already.

I don't know how long I can tahan there.

Probably, maximum a month.

I hope I can hang on there for a month, seriously.

Managers been talking to me.

I really, dislike the job. But I will force myself to stay for a month.

---

Looking back when we were young.

You do so many stupid things just to seek attention.

You rebel, because you wanted attention too.

Like who just do stupid things for no reason?

You do, because you want others to notice right?

I saw so many young teenage spamming status at facebook.

They can post up to 10 status in 1minute.

For what? For attention, right?

You know, been so long I bloghop and look at others blog.

Because I haven't put tagboard for so long, I already claim that all blog will not have tagboard.

I already don't know what is spamming other tagboard with anonymous name,

I already forgotten about using anonymous name scolding people.

All this don't exist in my dictionary anymore.

Think back, when we were still naive, we have tagboard,

and we ask people to tag, like "wah" ?

Then people will go "Wah, your blog so many people tag, so good"

Lol, is bullshit. I think is so childish now though I used to do it in the past like 7-8years ago?

Then keep link thousand or million of people.

Man, what am I doing in the past? So F'childish.

Having a facebook account isn't that WOW anymore. Haha.

Creating third fourth fifth account in facebook because account is full is not that great I think.

If you have your account full due to friends that you really know in real life, then I think is COOL :)

But you have so many friends that more than 90% are unknown, I think you can just delete the account.

What's the point of having so many friends when you never have known them in real life?

Though they have great privacy setting, but I think is still shit.

S.H.I.T.

No point having so many friends when you don't know them right?

---

Yeah. Just a sudden thought. Haha

Going to watch tv luh. Bye (:

updating..

2010-09-14T23:15:00.003+08:00

Have been quite a long time since I update.

Went out at night quite a few times with JuneHong.
'Cause he nothing better to do ask people out at Sunday night.
Got JiaQi, JunHao, Kelvin, Xushan and KaEn.

So, I work @ Giordano for 3 days and quit b'cause their incharge sucks.
China people just made me pissed, but no offence.
Majority are like that, so no doubt.

5S1 Chinese gathering by JuneHong.
Meet up with MsTan & MsTeo @ Yishun Swensen :)
Got ZhiHan, JiaQing, Daniel, KokBoon, JuneHong, JunHao, HuiWen, HockBoon, ShiKuan, XuShan & MingYee. (Hope I never miss out anyone)
Though last to reached, think great to see them.
Pool after that till 12am plus, walked home.

Teachers' Day went back with KaEn & MingYee.
Took some photos, and went town with KaEn & JiaQi.
Went to a few branded shop & finally get the item KaEn want.
From orchard LV shop to Raffles hotel one. Power? :D

I flunked my first final exam @ poly, b'cause I didn't study & I'm sick.
But still, main reason is I didn't study. So, blame myself.
I think I will freaking fail my exam, and lead to repeating my module.
It sucks, but what else can I do since is over then regret.

Meet up with quite a number of people since beginning of holidays.
Happy happy :) Hope to meet up more soon :D Since is holidayyyyyyys.

This two weeks nothing much.
Accompanied HuiWen go make contact lense last week I guess.
& accompanied XuShan go make spectacles today.
Got wood spectacles, uber cool! Feel like making one.

Yups, nothing much.
&& I want to look for a part time job~
Don't want temporary anymore......................

shag

2010-07-18T11:47:00.003+08:00

Checked NPal Absent Summary.
What the fuck, ELTECH teacher marked me absent because I am late.
Ohhh, whatever fuck. I just dislike the teacher more.

Although her face always smile, and like talking to you so nicely.
She's like treating us like primary or lower secondary school kids man!
Like fuck, she doing lecture, we talk. She don't teach.

Hey, please la, aunty, is polytechnic here. You do lecture, we listen a not, our problem.
Just fucking do your job and shut up. Hypocrite.

I am so so so angry she marked me absent.
Now I feel like skipping all her lectures. Arghh!

---

Yesterday at around 4.30pm brought Avery to swim.
She learned how people jump down to pool, like what the hell!
She keep crawling out of the water, then she become damn cold.
Then I brought her to the baby pool, then she cold until she shiver.
So, we stop swimming after that.

Monday had IJ project to do, SIAN.
.

2010-07-12T22:40:00.002+08:00

So I wasn't well the last week.
(I am still not okay now, I think)

My stomach forbid me from eating much ever since that.
I feel like vomiting once I had a bowl of rice.
Or something equivalent to a bowl of rice.
This sucks! Sigh sigh sigh.

I didn't vomit after last Friday, I assume.
Or I last vomit was Friday? Or Thursday? Not sure.
Now I too, feel like vomiting but I force myself not to

I had been skipping bridging maths module, but I don't care.
Ok I'm done. I feel like cutting my whole throat out.

not feeling well

2010-07-05T23:57:00.001+08:00

Uh! I just vomited till my whole stomach feel sour.
I thought I am okay already.....
But still abit not alright...
Maybe because I drank a cup of warm water?

Don't vomit out again please.....
Sighhhhh. Don't know what's with the stomach ):

Going sleep now.... Byee...
Hope I gets better when I wake up..

tired

2010-07-05T01:32:00.002+08:00

Had been raining lately, spoil my mood of going out.
Stayed at home the past few days.
Except Saturday went out to get dinner at CWP.
Bought sushi & KFC homed.

Cleaned the room from morning till 12am.
Cool, isn't it. And more than 9/10 of the stuff not mine.
Like fuck. FUCK! F-U-C-K! FUCK.

Still have school in the afternoon.
If skipped S&W have no make up, I will skip.
If bridging maths wasn't compulsory for weak students, I won't go.
FUCK UP EVERYTHING IN LIFE.

I'm really tired, I want to sleep, but my mind tells me not to sleep.
WHY WHY WHY. Actually I want to sleep.
Why didn't you let me sleep, so tired.
Sigh........

yawn, common test result

2010-07-02T02:12:00.002+08:00

Ah well, is 2.12am right now.
I can't sleep, but who cares ?

Gotten back all my common test result.
I didn't fail any module yet..
But sad thing is, I can't drop bridging maths due to low marks!
Sigh, very unhappy about it!

School was boring. All I do was sleep during lectures.
Is so hard to stay awake during lectures.
But I think I improved! Hahaha -.-
'Cause I sleep more during Secondary school days.

Just blog out of boredom, now IDK what else to post.
So, BYEEEE!

2010-06-27T23:49:00.003+08:00

Eyes is freaking tired, but still don't feel like sleeping.
Or another way round, I feel tired and sleepy, but don't want to sleep.

Had Swensen today with HuiWen :D
She treated me, thanks laa girl!
We ate damn a lot, believe me is a lot.
Full until we cancel order! Hahaha.
Walked around CWP, then HuiWen house slack abit.

Reach home, eat again :P
Till night had my favourite green apple +spinach juice.
Whooo :P

But I am very sad today...

when i close my eyes

2010-06-23T23:44:00.002+08:00

For all I care, for what I say.
I have never said any word out of anger.

I changed myself for the family, but I don't think it do any good.
I tried to make myself look at the brighter side, but it doesn't help.
I controlled myself on facing on the laptop, but I don't see any good.

If today, I am still the old self.
I kept everything to myself.
I keep quiet for anyone care.
I shut myself up.
I faced the laptop screen 24hours.
I don't utter a single shit.
I don't say out whatever I care.
I hooked myself on online games.
Everything won't happened.

I won't scold you, quarrel with you, or care about you.
The whole house might be peace with me right?

I am insane, I am crazy.
I shout and scream like nobody business.

Why do I even fucking cry when my tears are dried.

I am fucking tired I tell you.

----
Thank You for being my sister for 18years.
Thank You for finding me back when I ran away from home.
Thank You for giving my so much things in the past.

From that day on, I will no longer treat you like my sister.
I will treat you like any other relatives.
Which I don't fucking care about anymore.

---

Maybe is time to change myself again.
To whoever I am,
To someone no one can recognize.

new life?

2010-06-19T00:39:00.001+08:00

Do you think I need a new life?

I want to be myself too, but I just can't.

hello, im here! :D

2010-06-14T22:29:00.002+08:00

When was my last post? Seems quite long ago for me yeah.

Uh-uh. Nothing exciting nor interesting happened.
Hey! Wait, there is! But you-know.
Hahaha-hahaha.

So basically my life in NP wasn't as bad as I predicted.
But I bet my results were bad for CT!
Didn't revise for any, but so be it! Is life man!
If good marks is meant for me, it will be mineeeeeee!
If not, how hard I study also won't get good results right?!
Hahahahahahahahahahhaah-

How convincing I am :P
Yup, holidays right now.
Feeling so bored and stuff.

Yeah-yeah-yeah.
I don't know how to continue the post,
so byeeeeeee :D

2010-05-19T00:14:00.002+08:00

Life is full of ups and down.
Life is something that everyone is going through.
Life, is about all out of our control.

You cry when you feel upset.
You cry when you feel angry.
You cry when you're surprised.
You cry when you're over the moon.

You smile when you feel happy.

You laugh when you feel funny.

All of, you cry the most.

I cry doesn't mean I am upset.
I cry doesn't mean I am gave up.
I cry doesn't mean anything.

I cry because I can't hold back my tears..

I no longer know how to title my post

Poly life, shag

2010-05-13T22:20:00.002+08:00

HELLO HELLO!

I've got no time to update my blog.
& nothing interesting to update !
School have been, LIFE.
You know, LIFE. Is LIFE.
Poly LIFE, is LIFE. Yeah, LIFE.

I'm afraid of failing any module.
Because I don't want to retake!
Hate project/group work to the MAX.
Never like my grouping.

Keep taking bus to school, 'cause bought bus concession :)
Seldom take MRT liao! Wuuuuuuuuu >:
&&&& Keep gossipping too :D
Meet someone once from MSLSS too :D
Older than me though, 2 years, but I never seen her in MSL before!
Hahhaa :D

Yaya, that's all la ! LIFE is like that >:

huiwen's bday

2010-05-03T12:43:00.002+08:00

Since my lesson start late today, due to my lecturer is on childcare leave..
I shall blog! Hahaha.

Friday I met Vilynn at CWP after my school.
Had lunch at KFC, ate damn alot! Me only xP
After that Chee joined, then Jefrence joined us.
Vilynn left for CCA, EvonLee came.
Took 911 to Republic Polytechnic find XuShan.

Explore around RP, couldn't find XuShan! LOL.
(Like obviously we can't, 'cause she's in class!)
Called her and then, YAY! Found her.
Waited outside her class for awhile then she told us she could go le!
Hahah, was damn fast la. Then walk around find people.
Then went to their canteen eat ~
XuShan ate we kop! Hahah!

Cab to Claudia house later on. Omfg dogzx.
I nearly didn't want to go in LOL.
Stayed at her room for awhile.
After Claudia done bathing we went to took bus then MRT.
Reach Bishan GV. Dang, all tickets selling fast then we just bought the..
Ice Kachang Puppy Love.
Thought it would be a really boring show, but still okay.
Keep us all awake LOL!
Had dinner at yoshi!
Slack awhile and MRT, bused home. :D

Saturday night went over to meet HuiWen & Joesphine.
Bought some stuff at mama shop then went off to EvonLee house
&& Dogzxzx again! I tell you IDK shout how many times at her house ._.
THE EVONLEE LET HER DOG RUN AROUND THE HOUSE THEN JUMP UP THE BED IM AT.
OMFG, THE DOG WAS JUST BSIDE ME! MOTHER FUCKERzx LOL -.-
Then nevermind, let her dog emo at kitchen.
AFTER THAT SHE LET HER DOG COME OUT AGAIN >:
THEN THE CLAUDIA OPEN THE SECRET DOOR TO COME IN.
THEN THE DOG RUSH UP THE BED AGAIN.
THEN IDK I SHOUT ALL THE WAY LO ._.
THEN NVM, THEY NEVER LOCK THE DOOR AGAIN.
THEN I TELL THEM LATER I OPEN THE DOOR, THE DOG WAKE UP!
ALL DON'T BELIEVE ME. I HAVENT EVEN OPEN THE DOOR, JUST PRESS TO OPEN.
THE DOG DASH TOWARDS ME. FUCKING IDIOTIC >:

& NOW I GOING TO DISLIKE DOGS TO EVEN I DIE T^T.
SOBSOBSOBSOB! HUIWEN 18TH BIRTHDAY GAVE ME PRETTY MEMORABLE MEMORY!

Poly life sucks, really

2010-04-26T01:58:00.002+08:00

It have been 2 weeks since I update my blog(!)

So I had 2 celebration of birthday with two group of friends.
Both are loveddddddd <3!
Had sharkfins at home and ate the biggest bowl ^^!

Then, let's talk about poly life.
For me, is sianned. Really.
My class is boring, I'm boring too.
I hate the fact that, I need to face something call group work.
I can't communicate well, and yeah, I hate group work I should say.

& I didn't now Engineering courses was so much into Mathematics.
I thought just Physics. So I am doomed, on Maths.
And because I got a F C5 for my Maths, I need to stay till 7.30pm for extra lesson on Monday.
Shit it laaah! Mondays Blue - You know ):

And I hate the fact that at 12noon, there's no place in the makan place >:
So, I decided to bring food from home (: Save time, save walking energy.
Great. And I hate my school for being so far from me!

Lectures are boring, and my lecturer aren't good.
They seldom allow us to on our notebooks.

&& I pretty hate carrying the notebook around!
Is so heavy, even though it weighs 1.6kg or so >:

NVM, I just bought a new phone today.
SE Xperia X10 ^^; Great phone just can't video call >:
Nevermind, since I don't really need that functionnnnnn.
So, I shall announce I'm officially broke :D
Let's cheeeeeeeeeeer!

&& I haven't finish my project. Is 2am. Fuck!

Birthday

2010-04-12T23:28:00.001+08:00

Hello, I'm 18. :D

new laptop ^^

2010-04-01T23:58:00.002+08:00

Oh my god like finally, I collected my laptop! Dang.

Morning went to Marsiling Secondary School. Walked one big round.
The sun was scorching, damn hot and arghh!
Met with ELPP(A) then went in together.
Fuck the office women. Damn angry with her alright.

Starting I say I want to collect my O' level certificate.
She said is not ready yet cannot collect. Then I damn angry.
Then we say want find teacher she like don't want let us go find siol!
Say what MrTay difficult to find, what the hell!
Then get visitor pass go canteen and grab somethings to eat.
Stepped into canteen saw MrTay already!

After that chit chat abit and wait till 1.10pm! Saw MsTan!
Dang, she got outing )): Sadded. MsTeo need to do exam paper. What a day!
Then MsTan told us Abdah collect O level certificate le!
Jitao, more angry called and confirm!
Wah, go in office ask. Then that fucking women say is not I don't want to give is because is not ready yet.
Then another office women can give us she cannot.
Fuck angry! Fuck fuck fuck. Fuck you MSLSS.
I damn angry lo!

Today my main point is MSLSS sucks lo!
Made me scold so many foul words today.

needa chnge

2010-03-17T13:00:00.001+08:00

Seriously, I think I need a new layout for my blog.
With new song(s) too.

Enrolment

2010-03-15T11:58:00.002+08:00

Is already 15th, and I haven't finish my enrolment stuff and paying of school fees.
Bless me x: Going to rush things out tonight, LMAO :P
Let the school know I am a last minute person even before I enters it!
Fantastic? :P Anyway, dateline is tomorrow! Hahahah!

._.

2010-03-11T11:24:00.003+08:00

I skipped work yesterday and today :/ Manager must be very furious x:
Actually I wanted to go today, but oh well. No reply, then forget it.

Yesterday went to future school to see laptop and do test~
Very fast one, hahaha. Waited for Colleen to arrive for so long!
Just aiming for Fujitsu notebook. I wanted MacBook initially.
When I reached there, I feel like having Fujitsu LOL -.-
Not because Fujitsu cheaper, which is not.
The Fujitsu one cost like 2.2k man ._________________.
But is i7, so no more complaining gahh.

Think Saturday going buy le (: Then can take on spot ^.^
The person say got stock for the one I buy. Yay ;D

scary

2010-03-06T00:26:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, XuShan, JiaQi and me witnessed a very scary incident >_<
While walking to the bus stop from XuShan house, we heard a loud sound.
Like something dropped or some those machine sound.
Then I saw some construction worker there so I thought some machine dropped or something.
We continue walking then, till suddenly the three of us pause and turned D:
Then I said "Can we don't walk here?"
Then JiaQi said "I saw a leg"
XuShan & me "I saw it too"
None of us dare to look or what .___________.
Then heard one aunty shout " Got someone drop one "
XuShan & JiaQi continue walk a little to find out if anybody called police or something while I already crossed the road to the opposite bus stop.
Lucky I couldn't see anything from there.
XuShan & JiaQi came over a while later and said someone called police le.
So nevermind ba >_< Then the police came after quite a long time =_=
Then somemore the police don't stop the car on the road lo, still drive a big round go the car park.
Wahpiangs ! Buay tahan de police lo x:
After that bus came, and ambulance came. So I don't know what happen next le x:
Damn scary lo >_<>_<>_<

Then today read newspaper then know the person is commit suicide.
Oh my god lo! I still thought is really fell down or what sia ._____.
Scary scary scary! Very scary D:

why

2010-03-03T00:39:00.002+08:00

Why haven't I receive my enrollment package when all my friends have received days ago?

WHY??
):

work tmr ):

2010-03-01T20:57:00.002+08:00

I have to work tomorrow ): Sadded!
Working on Tuesday, Thursday and Friday~
Going out with girlf♥ on Wednesday :D

Today haven't wake up then need go to accompany Avery sleep.
Then 9am like that she woke up and cry -.-
Then I go make her milk for her!! 5 line of milk LOL.
I don't know how much was it, the marking on her milk bottle was 5 x:
LOL. Supposingly she only drink 4, but I just make more for her so won't hungry so fast.

After that playplay awhile, bathe her.
Bathe hao le, dry her hair and play awhile.
Then put her to sleep. I actually fall asleep first x:
After that around 1pm wake up. Feed her porridge.
Eat hao le receive HuiWen SMS then went down check mailbox.
No letter for me ): Sad, but nevermind.

Then bring Avery to XuShan house since she's so good girl today :D
Then around 3pm wanted bring her go MRT station wait my mum.
But suddenly rain so heavily ): Waited for awhile rain doesn't goes off.
Went back XuShan house. Skip skip. Around 4.40pm bring Avery home.
Then mummy feed her porridge. After awhile Vicky reached home.
Skip skip, Avery knocked the back of her head again.
Very hard this time round D: Then she cries like mad !
Brought her to NTUC buy stuff 'cause I feel like eating icecream x:
One visit spent 30$ plus, LOL. But mummy give me back $25!
So spend like $6 only. Yay! x: Anyway, this month pay just reached 500$!
LOL. Working lesser and lesser already :P Hehehe.

Okay la, that's it. BuhByeeeee :D

Dang

2010-02-27T21:41:00.002+08:00

Yesterday worked till 5pm. Manager sot? Put me until 5pm =_=
Forget it, it was very boring at work especially when the menu changed -.-
Is changing soon again =_= Hope nicer stuff, the current menu like not really nice x:

After work trained to Yishun find Abdah and Xushan :D
Slacked at Bata with them for awhile and went home.
Rushed to Huiwen and Jo's block to meet them up.
Thought I was already late so keep rushing them and myself.
Ended up, ELPP came home at 9pm! Zzzzzz ~
Three dogs at her house, super sianned x: LOL.
They were torturing the doggie Hahaha x:

They didn't come to my house as is late and HuiWen was sick.
So wanted to come today, but HuiWen was sick still.
So ended up, they didn't come my house ): Sigh.
Rotted at home today and asked my Dad take care Avery instead of me. LOL.
Then he doesn't know how to wear the pampers for Avery until he tore some shit out of the pampers. LMAO. Super funny until I cannot stop laughing.
Even when I first try to help Avery pampers I also manage to do it.
Hahaha. Super funny laaa ~

Nothing much laa.. Now Avery beside me see me blog while Mummy trying to coax her to sleep.
Cause I lying on bed blog. Avery keep "ah-ta-da"ing LOL

CNY-bainian

2010-02-23T16:03:00.002+08:00

Sunday night went out to bainian again.
Bus-ed to MingYee house with HuiWen and HockBoon.
Blackjack at MingYee house again, and I lost a few bucks.
At nine, bus-ed to Jo house. Meet EvonLee at bus-stop!
She brought a stupid thing along, a dog =__________=
So there was three dogs surrounding me >:
I sat at Jo "study" room or whatever room was that while they were having fun with ELPP's dog in the living room >:
After that I thought go home luh, they went up HuiWen house.
They told me go awhile then I followed them up.
Who knows x: We blackjack there, with just four people.
LOL! Before going out I told my Mum I would be home by 11pm x:
But we began gambling at 10.30pm like that.
Like quite impossible so called and told Colleen will be home around 11pm plus :P
Gamble till 11.10pm! Win back those I have lost in MingYee house!
I brought 19.70$ out and came home with 21.70$! Win a little only :P

Monday work work work >_< Super sianned. Got some angbao from workplace.
Which is a good thing too ^^ But very boring at work, 'cause not many people.
Today also >_< Sigh. Only can online till 4.30pm 'cause at 5pm got customer coming!
How stupid lo >: Arghhhhhhh! Actually can online till 5.45pm one lo!
Now I don't know where to go >: 'Cause nothing much to shop and I think bring cash out ):
Is already 4.18 Sigh. That's all for today.

cont'd CNY post

2010-02-21T10:51:00.000+08:00

Okay so, because I went back to M'sia to make passport. I got no choice but to stay there till I finish visiting my relatvies in M'sia.
Why? Because once I leave Msia then, my passport have no more PR!
So I didn't got the chance to buy new year goods ): Sadded.
And staying at my aunt house was very bored 'cause I dislike my noisy cousins.
& they love to wake people up early in the morning ! >_<

CNY eve have steamboat again this year >:
Not wanting to have steamboat again next year !
Every year steamboat, super sian >________<
Avery slept at 12am -.- She missed the pretty firework x:
Alot of people played with kong ming deng this year O_O
Was like WOW! Hahahahahah :P

First day of CNY went to ahkim house, supposingly called it ahgong house de.
But all grandparents passed away already >_<
Only baby there was Avery 'cause Freya went to Ipoh .____________.
Also bored nah, cause I got nothing to chat with my relatives.
Took money from dad and Colleen to gamble with my cousin and uncle nor ;P
Papa lost RM13! Chee and me lost RM2 only :P Hahahahahahhahaahhahaah!
My biaoge win all =____________________________________=

After that at night went to my er shu gong house bai nian.
IDK how many years since I saw him. Seems like a great person in Msia.
But I don't like visiting them -.- lol~~~~

Second day of CNY, went to benzhen baibai. But I didn't pray or what x:
'Cause all my dad pray ;P HAhahhahaha. Then dad help me asked stuff O_O
Say I July cannot go out at night -.- Cannot attend people wake or funeral X_X
So, who's dying during July ? HAHAHAHAHHAHA! x:
Very long ride and I was having stomachache! Just pain and cramps.
When they went for lunch, I just skipped it.
Went back Aunt house and they went swimming during evening.
Stupid Vicky asked me bring Avery go swim !
Then make myself all wet =_______________________________=
Avery know how to kick in water neh. Uber cute LOL!
When my two little noisy cousin splash water on her, she will kick her leg like wanna run away from them like that! Hahahahahhaa!

At night went PingHuei house overnight. LOLz .
When Avery reached, she cried -.- Cause she just woke up and see stranger.
But after awhile she begin to naughty again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
She have been sleeping at very late for 3 days in a row =_________=
Eating CNY crackers too! -_- And became sick LOL.

3rd day of CNY. Went Jusco shop -.- LOL how bored was it -.-
Went to a cheap skate shop to eat cause of Vicky -.- She chose it!
FOod & Tea I think.
Lousy service and food there isn't really nice though I only have some ice stuff -.-
Went back to SG at night!

rest of the day look after Avery and my super irritating cousin which I don't like !!!!!!!!!!!
Thursday Colleen came and fetch my cousin back. Whooo :P Hahaha.
Friday mum never work so she look after AVery.
SKIP--- Avery is too naughty to let me write everything of her out----

Yesterday I woke up with flu, fever and sorethroat.
Was actually 38.3, then became 39.5 in the afternoon.
Avery keep wanting me to carry no choice called my dad home.
4pm went to bathe and set off to wen house with fever still!
Took before going still 39.5 =_____________________=
Gamble at her house. OMFG! Her bro's friend crazy. Nearly lead me to bankrupt.
One round 5-6$ >_< Then double 10$/12~ Crazy crazy!
Actually I not banker de, is wen. Then she lost all her money nobody want be, I be nor >_<

After that set off to JingYing house. Gamble small small cause of JJ -.-
JJ lost 20cents only like lost 200$ LOL -.- Keep saying she lost 20cents.
After that set off to CWP to meet PeiKuan and went to foodcourt to eat.
Not hungry so skipped dinner but AhJo went to buy porridge for EePheng then she bought me one too! >_< Thanks anw.
Went to PK house to had the porridge O_O I ate ~~half~~ okay! Hahaha. x:
ELPP helped to finish most of it. LOL!
Wanted to gamble at PK house ended up didn't. 11pm plus went home my parents already asleep -.-
JJ send me home and the cat below of house was scary!
Keep on following me like OMFG. Only JJ see de scariness !
Went up the lift and that's one more cat.
Stood still at the corridoor to wait for the cat to go away!
Stand for quite awhile then finally it dash past me!
Nearly fainted siol me -.- Quickly went into the house!

Midnight my head uber pain not headache kind.
Then get scolded by my mum for bathing late at night.
THen she asked me dont come home so late !! T^T 'cause head pain nor-.-
Then took panadol and went bck to sleeep.
Woke up at 9 plus ;P Fever gone. Headache gone. Wahahhaa.

CNY

2010-02-19T23:59:00.002+08:00

Before CNY, when I was at work.. I was down with flu suddenly.
Manage to survive till break, though I already feel the pain.
Everytime I sneeze, I can feel that something from my body is pushing down.
Then ended up too much sneezing, my bottom part of the body become super pain.
The bones I should say, until I could only stand. Totally cannot bend a bit.
Cannot take it and I got the so sick face, everyone asked me to go home.
Told manager initially, he told me to wait awhile, he go out see busy anot.
Then I at around 8 plus, he tell me can go home. Say 8.30 loh.
MRT-ed home with the pain. Standing for that long time.
From Orchard to Marsiling. And walk home from MRT station.

Pain was CMI. Friday went to make passport as it expires on March.
Many people and I malaysian. Got to go Msia make -.- Worst till the person talk to me in Malay.
So I just guess what the person is talking LOL =___________________=
~~~~~~~~~~OMG HALF WAY POSTING THIS I HEAR CAT MEOWING OUTSIDE MY HOUSE!!!!!!!!!!!!! IS 12:09AM!!!!!!!!!!!! SURE IS CHEE DEAD HAMSTER SOUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

OKOK CONTINUE TMR BB

Low pay

2010-02-06T13:50:00.002+08:00

My this month pay is going to be less than 400 for sure!
'Cause I am like working on an average of 1 day per week for this week only.
I am like so power lei ;P Basically is because CNY is coming.
Next I feel so lazy working 'cause I hate the dish up there.
Basically, just one of them now. The another had already went back to kitchen.

The reason why I didn't blog is because I am watching drama everyday x:
Hahahaha. Now watching 下一站幸福！Had already finish 海派甜心!
就想赖着你 also not bad at first episode xD Hahahah ~
That's my holiday. Only have the urge to watch all drama at holidays!

Restaurant is having yusheng But sure very little customer.
Like who will come to a japanese restaurant to celebrate CNY =_=
Anw, notvery expensive though. serves two with salmon sashimi 20 plus only xD

TSKTSK!
I put Avery in her small bed and let her play on her own while I blog.
Then I blog till too into it, then forgotten about her !
Then suddenly so quiet I went to check on her !!
Guess what? She fallen asleep =________________________=
LOL sia -.- Okay la, me go put her sleep nicely luh, byeeeeeeeeeeeeee xD

posting result

2010-01-28T01:04:00.000+08:00

Want to know which polytechnic I am going to?

Different from everyone of you, sigh.
But don't have the feeling to go appeal, IDK why.

Appeal or not appeal?

one week break

2010-01-26T22:46:00.002+08:00

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeees! I put one week of break for my schedule!
Ahahahaha, so that means no work for one week! Hurray for me :D
But of cause less pay, but is alright :D Wakakakaka !

I went back to Malaysia on Sunday night. Passport is expiring soon.
On the March this year. Awwwwwwwwwww >_<
Reached alraedy Mum was so lame go wake Avery up.
Then when reach aunt house, Avery saw the playground and didn't want to sleep.
Lol. Play for awhile then I online to watch 海派甜心！Uber nice show !
Monday went to do hair awhile then came back Singapore.
Hear Avery call me "Ahyi" for the very first time .
She loves piano man. Crawling, walking and crying at the same time towards me.
Clapping her hand asking me to bring her to the piano and play.
Hahaha, damn funny. 'Cause normally she wants my aunt not me =_=

Went out today with Colleen and bought some clothes :D
Ohmygod, I bought a super red one for CNY. LOL HAHAHAH.
Then went CWP ichiban to had dinner :D Salmon sashimi, AHHHHHHH! <3
Went home took out the clothes let mummy see. LOL.
She was asking me and Colleen why buy so many red clothes.
Rofl! Hahahhahaha. Then I told her CNY first day I going to wear that red shirt.
Lmao! xP

Tomorrow will be the posting result day! Actually not really nervous or whatever.
Nyahh, let it be. Tomorrow will be fine (:

>_< Workplace~

2010-01-20T17:08:00.002+08:00

At restaurant having break now.. Uber sian oh~
Today not much customer so just slack, Haha.

27th getting our posting result man!
Wonder which course and school will I be posted to!
Like oh my god luh! >_<
Hopefully to some course that is great for my future :)

Starting work at 6pm, and I am like so bored, and cold right now!
Seating infront of the laptop, wearing a jacket yet still shivering. LOL.
Just random posting again ~ BYe~!

gahhx

2010-01-20T00:23:00.002+08:00

Don't know I will regret a not, 'cause..
I put Tue-Fri full, and Sat half for this week schedule >_<
I am like working less and less these days, but who cares ^^

Today at work, some china guy at my work place hai wo kena scold by customer!
So it happened when a table of a couple(a man and lady obviously) asked for an order.
The china guy went to take order without bring any paper or pen.
So after like 5min, the china guy came back and asked me go over as he said, they order too many thing and he cannot remember.
So I went over to the couple and said " Can I have your order? "
Then de man was very angry, talking to me in a very bushuang manner saying "Can you don't send this guy out to serve customer? He can't even understand english and I have to translate everything to Chinese for him!"
Then de lady asked me if she had to repeat all her order again, then I said yes.
Then order half, the man talked again. "Do you know what's macha parfiat in chinese?"
Then I gave the stunned look like how would I know -.-
The man looked at me and said "You know even know and that fellow expect me to know"
Order finish, the man asked me repeat my order. Then I read until Ebi Gyoza.
He said everything is correct. Then when I serve the gyoza, he asked if is the pork one.
Then I said is the prawn one -.- Damn him. Then I go see de menu again, is the prawn one the lady pointed >_< 'Cause the pork one is not in that menu! Arghh >_____<
How stupid of my work today~~

Nevermind, heck care it for nowwwwwwwww >_<
Just random blogging about my work. x:

x :D

2010-01-17T23:51:00.002+08:00

Had been quite a long time since I sat down infront of the computer and start blogging properly.
Properly as in, blogging everything I want out.

Lying on bed infront of the netbook, just suddenly have the urge to blog.
I have no idea why, but just blog :D Hahahaha.
So on the 11th, I've got my GCE 'O' level results. Woah, this year everyone is like so brave.
Not like past year see-ing people crying ;D Just TXS cried, she said because she thought she would fail, but she didn't. Still have poly choices.
I'm uber happy that everyone of us cleared our O' level like finally :D
Our journey in Secondary school finally came to an end.

Although not much effort put into the O' level (by me), but still am happy!
'Cause those effort I used to chiong my Science with buddies and friends!
From F9, I manage to scored a B3 :D Cheeeeeeeeeer for me!
Like-so-happy, really :D At least I didn't disappoint MsTan and MsTeo who put in so much effort teaching us. Spending their precious time on us during their free time.
We did it, like really. Is not a dream (:

Everyone is going to poly (except for a few that's going ITE *cheer pls*)..
Really hope can go same poly together >_<>_< But nevermind, we will meet up yay :D

Sometimes I think, failure may not be a bad things.
If not because of that failure, I won't know how am I like now.
Thank friends & families for everything.

O level result.

2010-01-12T16:22:00.000+08:00

I did not do very well, not really sastified, but I am happy :D

two-o-one-o

2010-01-03T16:44:00.002+08:00

It's 2010! Means I'll be 18 in 4 months times :D
And results is in this month time (something that isn't great)
Didn't went for any count down or whatever, just stayed at home.
& rot. Anyway, I've got my pay, but sigh. 'Cause some went in CPF :/
My mum told me if they don't put some of our salary to CPF, we won't save money.
Which, is quite true. LOL =______________=

Very sian at working, especially with the service and kitchen staff craps -.-
Service staff ask me to put some stuff here and kitchen staff asked me to be the stuff there.
How stupid. Then the service staff scared of the kitchen staff heads only -.-
Lame lah, super lo >_< I don't really care loh. Kinda lame lah them.
So old already so lame. LOL -.- Nonesense and crap x:

Bored loh, that's why I am blogging lol. PPStream don't why cannot read Chinese word.
Then cannot watch my show. HIAX! SIAN!!!!

Last day of 2009

2009-12-31T01:25:00.002+08:00

Didn't really have a nice time to think of what to blog.
Time flies so fast, is already the last day of 2009.
Meaning, am getting old again. Sigh. 18 D: Can you believe it?

How sweet, bitter, sour, fun, happy, sad and all sorts of emotion.
How difficult we, overcome all these, finally it came to an end of this year.
Should it be a joyful thing, or a saddening thing?

Just, am already working for one month. Yeah, one month.
Like, finally. Breaking of plates, spoons, bowls, spilling of soyu and stuff.
Hahhhaaha, so many craps going on, keep going to the toilet and eat snake.
Yeah. One month.

Anyway, is half day! So just gonna tahan 4 hours thats it . And sleep till I am happy.
So, sleeping late tonight. Yay :D Gonna eat Mac luh, buhbyeee (;

lifeless

2009-12-19T20:07:00.002+08:00

Such lifeless me >_< This week only work 3.5 days LOL :D
Cause Monday Class BBQ then Tuesday think will tired then put off too x:
So work Wed, thu and Fri and also Sat half day!
Which is today xD Next week working 5.5 days though X'mas.
No double pay too, but nevermind la. Just work lo (:
For the sake of money, you know money $_$

Everyday sleep at around 1am or 2am >_<
End work at 10/1030pm >_<
Then reached home 1130pm plus.
Sian till >_< Morning 9.45 wake up.
Lastest 10am. Sadded siol >_< Lifeless me !
T^T

N level result is out... Chee manage to get promote.
Dang my turn on January,. Sad case.
Hope the results won't come out. LOL.
Okay la.. Going to surf net and watch some show le (:

Class BBQ

2009-12-15T23:12:00.002+08:00

Class BBQ yesterday. We aren't the latest to reach :D
Was JieHeng birthday too, so everyone sang him a birthday song.
So long didn't see everyone, then is like woah.
Find got things that got me so disappointed Abdah! >:

Yeah. FuDian's Dad sent XuShan and me home.
When I reach the lift, is 12:34am ; LOL.
Is always so coincidence at the time =D

Two brat staying at my house for 1 week along with Avery.
Dang, totally crazy and mad. Brought them home from CWP today.
Vicky brought them there -.- Spent like half of my assets to buy Avery a doll D:
Or two? Another one was a small one with the pink pouch. Lol.
But the doll was uber cute :D Lalala.
A pink and white one (!)

Scolded the two brats just now -.- Super disobedient !
Although one is 7, while the other is 9.
Is like I cannot stop scolding and shouting at them.
Then I shouted at Avery too, because of them, Avery become so so so naughty.
Sometimes I really wonder, Avery let my Aunt take care, really got so good mahs?
But too bad, no one else could take care, because you know.
Guys sucks (:

Ah well, 3.5 days off from work and tomorrow there's work!
Is like AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Back to torture again.
Sigh sigh sigh. But for the sake of $______________$
LOL. Hahahha. Okay lah, am super tired already, Bye.

(I think this is quite a long post :D)

flu attack

2009-12-14T15:29:00.002+08:00

Oh fuck! Fly attack >_< Thanks to Avery ._.
Slept with her for 2hours only, then now flu attack luh >_<

Later got class BBQ, ahhhhhhhh >_<
Have been working for 2 weeks luh ._.
Kinda sian nor, hiax hiax hiax .

Dont know what to update lah, just one word..
SHAG

work!

2009-12-05T22:47:00.002+08:00

Dang. Worked for 4.5days luh >_<"
Suppose to be full day today, but, hahaha x:
Tomorrow's going for Freya first birthday celebration.
Though it should be on the 10th. LOL.

Work was gaagaagaa. >_< Work luh then no time for tv.
No time for msn chat. No facebook. No drama. Only sms. Sigh!

Because of split shift wasted 2-2.5h, but without split shift I need to stand 8hours.
So is okay.. Ah well, boring life. Live one day by one day bahz.

-.-

2009-11-21T00:16:00.001+08:00

Rotted at home, is frigging bored.
Sleep, eat, play. LOL -.-
Viwawa-ing these days. Dang.

Need a life, need a life.
Really need a life. Save me, god.